Two weeks ago I forgot to take my cymbalta. The cymbalta is mainly to keep the lid on the crazy lady that lives inside my head. It also helps with my fibromyalgia. Once I forget to take my meds it causes a downward spiral. I forget again and again and then I remember but then I decide maybe I don't need it or I get to the point I dont want to take it because I don't want to go through the jittery sick feeling I get when I start it again. When I don't take it I get downright bitchy. I become so easily irritated with the smallest things that I'll sometimes even think in the back of my head...Bitch what are you complaining about now! It's TRUE!! I am certifiably nutty. My poor dear family.
When I am off my meds I end up over sleeping or under sleeping. This of course makes me extra crazy. I end up sometimes feeling suicidal or just overly depressed. I have never had a great self esteem but when off my meds the little bit of self esteem I have goes out the window. Hell it gets up and runs out the door. So what does one do to get back to sanity?
I am a 30 year old BRCA 1 positive mom of 3 girls and I am living with fibromyalgia. After many night of insomnia and my mind racing with thoughts Ive decided to start writing it all out. This BRCA gene sure has ruffled my feathers so to speak and I am just trying to figure it all out. I'll warn you I am horrible at English and my writing skills are less then desirable but I'll try my best to be mildly entertaining.
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